A Decade Away
Yesterday marked the decade upon my departure from the Pacific NW. So much has transpired over these past years and when I pause long enough to steal a gaze backwards there’s a flood of emotions. Many of them good. I really have grown, been lucky enough to have a few life experiences. Most importantly I found the woman of my dreams, the one whom I could never quite see, just as she was about to turn and look at me the damn alarm clock would go off. Reflecting now though, the one thing, and maybe a bit naive on my part, was the day I pulled out of Seattle in my ’78 VW bus, Athena, bound for the Caribbean, I really believed it was going to just be a chapter in my life and that i’d return in a couple few years. Life just doesn’t always go as we think it will. The bumps and turns, the pull and allure of some distraction, choices and decisions — they all play a part in the journey. I guess hidden in there somewhere is the definition of wisdom.
I’ve spent the last ten years trying to define my home. I’ve lived a bit transient as I tried to understand, not only myself, but what was important to me, and where I shall I call home. To me, home is two places. There’s a geographical location and a place within my heart. Both I find solace and an inviting sense of calmness in. In fact, Sus and I were just discussing last night, how we’ve both never really felt ‘at ease’ here. Yes, we both do like the town we live in, we think it’s cool, it’s got a lot of things going for it. Yet, I don’t think either one of us has given ourselves permission to settle. There’s so many other things that could be going on that aid in that feeling, and I won’t get in to it all, but if you’ve ever read other posts, or know us, you’ll understand as well. Either way, we are now looking to find some permanence, a home-base if you will. I don’t think either one of us will totally slow down, and we both get extreme wanderlust and are always discussing the next locale for some adventure, but we want to be grounded somewhere. I also believe that we both have some sort of pull to the PacNW. We are working hard at making that happen, if anything we may just throw the arms up into the wind and come-a-running. At this point in our lives, I think, anything is possible. I know that doesn’t sound very responsible, but I’ve also learned in my life that some occasions deserve that childish spice.